Wake Up Sid

Warning: In this post I have discussed the movie and a lot of scenes in detail. In case you haven’t seen the movie, you might want to refrain from reading the following post.

 Let me start by saying that if u think this movie was only about Sid (Ranbir Kapoor) you are mistaken. The story of Sid is just a part, an integral part, of the movie, but it is not the main plot or aim of the movie. Next, if you failed to notice that Aiesha (Konkana) also has a story, I would suggest that you go watch the movie again.

This is the most touching, realistic, beautiful and subtle movie I have seen in a while. It has so much in it that you might miss it if you’ve got accustomed to the no brainer cheap bollywood flicks that lay more importance on everything else like actors, outfits, locations et al, other than the story. This is a movie that needs to be felt rather than just ‘seen’.

Only yesterday I was having a conversation about the movie with my mom who failed to understand it. She argued that the concept of the movie (Sid’s transformation from being a boy to a man and that of Konkana moving to a new city) wasn’t new hence the movie had nothing new to offer. But that’s what.. it isn’t new but its us ( the late teens I guess and the 20’s) the characters reflect us, at some or the other stage in our lives so far.

 Let me give you an insight by saying that the movie is not just about Sid, its also about Aisha, a girl from Calcutta who moves to Bombay to live her life her way, to make it on her own. She is one independent strong woman who isn’t forced by circumstances to give up staying with her parents and move to an unknown city but rather chooses to stay alone, cook for herself, wash her own clothes, hunt for a job and then manage both her work and home all in an unknown city and without any one to turn to. It is only by chance that she stumbles upon Sid who eventually becomes her only friend in the city.

 The scenes when Aisha and Sid first meet and decide to go for a walk, when Aisha clarifies that she has no intentions of sleeping with Sid lest she be misunderstood for being a girl like that. The scenes where Sid slips out of his parents Anniversary party on receiving a message from Aisha only to realize that in about 10 mins it’s Aisha’s birthday and scratches his head to finally come up with an idea for a Birthday cake. The bread jam cake and the match stick on it was a beautiful scene. The joy of not being alone on her birthday and also of the fact that her newly found friend cared enough for her to manage to lit up a candle for her on her birthday made her birthday which otherwise would have been dull and loney, the most memorable one. This was one scene that one cant really describe, we just feel it and relate to it, coz most of us, at some point or the other in our lives have had somebody who has cared enough to light up a candle for us literally or otherwise.

The scene where Sid, reaches Aisha’s apartment breaks down and hugs her after he decides to leave his home following an argument with his parents regarding his college result is another beautiful scene of the movie where harsh reality suddenly slaps across the otherwise non-serious, irresponsible just out of college guy’s face. That’s the first instance of Sid having to face reality and bear its consequences.

This is then followed by his long and quite torturous stay at Aisha’s apartment where much to Aisha’a dismay Sid continues to make a mess of her apartment every successive day. One fine day when Aisha failing to take it anymore lashes out at Sid for being irresponsible and for messing up with her apartment every day leaves at night and comes back the following morning only to find a spic and span apartment. This eventually sparks off the reformation process of Sid. Where he learns to cook, cleans the apartment, washes clothes, learns to keep the kitchen clean and eventually even ends up doing not just his part of the daily chores but also Aisha’s. Not just that, he finally realizes his passion and then with a little help from Aisha he even manages to get himself a job and does pretty well at it.

 Also, there is a scene in the movie where Sid sneaks in to meet his mother, where over a usual conversation she casually admits that her efforts to learn the English language were her way of trying to become Sid’s friend. Cleverly hinting at how his parents had in his life taken a backseat and how his life had become only about his friends.

 Meanwhile the movie shows Aisha’s interest in her boss which continues unabated, which much to her delight is followed by a few outings with him with his friends where Aisha realizes that things with him were not quite the way she had imagined they would be. This coupled with some confusing pangs of jealousy when Sid interacts with his other girl friends brings out a very realistic point in a very subtle way.

The fact that sometimes things might not turn out the way we imagined or hoped they would and sometimes we might just find something we weren’t even looking for, from an unexpected corner of life which eventually ends up making us happier than we thought we could be.

Aisha’s much awaited yet surprisingly uninteresting relationship with her boss who according to her was ‘her kind’ of man and the live in situation in which Aisha finds herself leaves her confused. In the course of all the daily chores and routine life both Aisha and Sid fail to realize how they had gotten used to not just living with each other but had also become each other’s only support system. Their platonic relationship is yet another beauty in the movie. It compels the viewers to accept that a guy and a girl can simply be friends and even be sharing an apartment without necessarily being sexually involved.

Towards the end, Aisha is jolted to reality after a brief period of confused emotions when she suddenly finds it difficult to come to terms with the fact that Sid has finally been able to patch up with his family and is now moving out and going back home. On Sid’s failure to understand her state she blames him for still being a ‘kid’ and for not being able to understand her, to which Sid makes her realize that all this while he was trying to become the person she could respect. Aisha finally wakes up to the fact that Sid had actually changed from being an irresponsible young brat to a fine responsible young man. It then dawns upon her that he had in fact become everything she had ever wanted ‘her’ man to be. The movie ends with the realization on both Sid and Aisha’s part that they both had fallen for each other.

The most amazing part of the movie is the fact that it ends with them saying ‘I love you’ to each other rather than starting from there, which simply suggests that their falling in love wasn’t the main story, it just followed from it. Also that their love wasn’t the kind of love that grew out of lust but one that stemmed from the fact that they had embarked on a journey called life together and survived and came out stronger only with each others support.

The movie indeed makes a great viewing. It’s a simple plot wonderfully directed. Also every actor’s performance is worth applauding specially Konkana and Ranbir. They have done a wonderful job and the casting just couldn’t have been more apt! Thankfully the movie was not about skin show, glamorous actreses who barely know how to act, outfits or pre-launch promotions which ensure the movie has recovered enough even before it has been released! Not very often does one come across such simple and sensible movies that one can relate to. So in my opinion, go ahead watch the movie, even if you don’t understand every part of it, it’s still worth it.

 

Can you live with yourself?

Over the last few days this is one question I’ve been wondering about. So here I am writing about it. In this post I’ll put it up in two different aspects. Let me start with the first one, where I ask you if you can live with yourself and yourself alone. By this I mean that incase you are alone, maybe living all by yourself in an apartment or alone in a different city for work or for some other reason, will you be able to live without any other company but your own? Do you enjoy your own company or run away from it? Can you eat alone? Go shopping alone? And spend time with yourself when you are probably putting up in an empty guest house or a hotel room? Do you use the phrase ‘I am bored’ just too often? Or do you not remember the last time you said that? Do you look for some kind of company to pass your time or do you enjoy your lone time? The answer to this question will just give you an insight about how comfortable you are with yourself. In my opinion it tells you whether you feel complete or not because some one who feels complete would love his or her lone time, they, if left alone, would enjoy the company of their thoughts alone, if nothing else. Where as some one who doesn’t feel that way would find it extremely difficult to pass his time alone. 

Moving on to the second side of this very question; how easy/difficult/fun/hard would it be to live with some one like you? By some one like you I mean that they share the same characteristics but maybe not exactly the same taste. Let me make it more clear by giving you an example. Suppose both of you are strong headed, decisive, and adamant and you might have conflicting views about a particular thing, or probably both of you are indecisive, disoriented and unorganized. What would you do then? Here’s another example, think of it like this, think of a rash driver, somebody who’s not just rash in his driving but also drives carelessly, doesn’t slow down at crossings to see if there’s another vehicle coming coz he probably believes that even if there is one, the other driver will probably stop and give him the way but what if the other driver is equally careless and does not stop? A collision, in this case is inevitable. What do you do when you have to face somebody like you? Our loved one’s generally put up with all our nuances, irrationality and our shortcomings but what when we come across some one who has no reason to put up with any of that? This in fact, reminds me of the movie ‘Taxi No 9211’. There, I guess, now you would have gotten a clear picture of what I am trying to say here. So what do you do then? Its ok if you don’t or can’t answer this question, my sole point here was to make you think who you are, not how you know yourself but how others see you. Just so that we could see how we sometimes could be difficult to handle for the very people we love and to, for a minute, stop and introspect so that we could appreciate all those who stand by us despite our shortcomings and love us anyways.

 

No! Not any more…

For the last couple of days, I’ve had a similar experience with a number of different people. Be it my driver, contractor or my client. I’ve been nothing but nice to them, considerate, humane and extra caring in ways many people are not. I’ve done a lot of stuff for these people that in general I am not ‘supposed’ to do, but I did them anyways coz I was considerate. I’ve dropped my driver off at stations convenient to him so that he could take a train back and save 15-20 minutes and the trouble of dropping me off and going all the way back, even if that meant driving back home alone at 1 at night.

I’ve gone to my client’s place at midnight to bring back stuff to my workshop for alterations because they couldn’t come over to mine and have personally gone to deliver everything back at 2 pm the same day. But what do I get in return? Well, you would be grossly wrong if you thought gratefulness. All I have got is the realization that I had been stupid to be nice to people. All that I’ve got is a thankless attitude coupled with the feeling that it was the other person’s birthright to get such privileges at the cost of my inconvenience.

People have done nothing but walk over me and give me shit and what have I done about it? Nothing. I’ve not said a word, not complained even once if my driver has come even half an hour late and I have had to drive to a destination I am not very sure about, all by myself. I’ve not said a word if my clients have been adamant about getting things done their way, when they did not take my advice with respect to how a thing should be done and then asked me to re do the entire thing the way I had initially suggested, after the stuff was complete and they realized they had been wrong. I’ve happily made the necessary changes and delivered the stuff right back at their door step. To top it all; have not even been paid for my work! I did not ask for money because she is the daughter of my dad’s acquaintance. I took her as a friend more than a client and what do I get? Only complaints and no money.

Its time, high time I should say, that I promise myself that I will not let people walk over me ever again. Its time I stop being nice to people as I have been the only person to take shit and to suffer. Its time I start doubting people more than I could trust them. Its time that I start doing things not with the belief that the person would not hurt me, disappoint me or walk over me rather only consider myself lucky if and when all this doesn’t happen. Its time I promise myself that I will never put any body else’s convenience over mine. That’s enough… not now… not any more.

 

Lost… and enjoying it!

I was out today, to a place, only slightly familiar. Not for work but only with the purpose to see and explore a new place. I took fewer roads that I knew and more of those that I didn’t. Managed to stick to the right roads at some times and got lost the other times.

 

A couple of wrong turns and a few U-turns later I realized how much I enjoyed getting lost. Every time I got lost I was thrilled. Even the wrong turns excited me coz they took me to places I hadn’t seen before. And as and when the roads used to run dry, in terms of places to explore I used to turn the wheel around and head back to the point from where I had gone wrong and take a new direction from there. I had no specific destination. My only purpose was to explore and every wrong turn gave me a chance to do exactly that! Also every wrong turn made me realize that I didn’t fret, I had the confidence that I’ll make it out and be back on the road that’ll take me home. I had the courage to get lost and the confidence to find my way out.

 

I wonder how many of us live our lives like that. I wonder how many of us have the confidence of making it through places we haven’t been to or doing something we have never tried our hand at and be sure that we’ll crack it?

 

A batsman being confident about his batting and an actor being confident about his acting is not the kind of confidence I am talking about. That’s practice more than confidence. I am talking about the confidence a batsman would probably have about his acting or vice versa. The confidence that comes, not from having already done something over and over again, but the confidence that you have on yourself. At the same time, there’s a very thin line difference between confidence and over confidence. It’s just that if you are confident, you’ll have a better chance to take in your stride a failure, where as if you were overconfident, chances are you didn’t evaluate the possibility of a failure and wouldn’t be in a very comfortable position if you were unable to succeed. So if you think you can afford to get lost, go take an unknown road, once in a while, in life and enjoy the uncertainty and the exploration… who knows what you might stumble upon. There isn’t any harm in trying something new, as long as the stakes aren’t too high.

 

Just Say it!

So often we complain that life’s complicated. But wait a second, is it really so? Or is it just that life isn’t ‘that’ complicated, instead, we complicate it with our emotions, misunderstandings, assumptions and feelings not expressed?

We lose out on relationships and friendships because of our ego, assumptions and judgments. We misunderstand our loved ones or sometimes they misunderstand us and that makes us feel that life’s twisted. More often than not we form opinions about people, assume things and then on top of that also assume that we are right! God! Now that’s sounds complicated!

You know what makes it simpler? Expressions. Coz if you express yourself, there remains no scope for assumptions, misunderstandings and those ‘if’s and but’s’. It all gets a lot easier. You like some one. Go tell that person. If that person is your friend he/she will understand and respect you for being honest. If that person isn’t already a friend, you don’t stand to lose anything, instead, by not expressing yourself you might be losing out on time!

You can not control how the other person feels or the way they think or do things but you certainly control the way you do things. Express yourself, don’t bottle up your feelings. Relationships work best when they are transparent along with the people who are in it. Repressed feelings are going to come out one way or the other. No matter how deep inside they are. Feelings are like an open bottle of wine, pour it out before it turns bad. Give an outlet to your feelings in a responsible way and you are bound to stay healthy and balanced (emotionally and psychologically). If you bottle up your emotions they are just going to sink in deeper and finally affect your psychology and you as a person. They’ll meddle with the way you think and result in you doing things in a particular way, you wont even notice, it’ll sink into your subconscious mind. If you let them out responsibly and regularly they’re not going to bother you. Just like we try to keep our rooms and homes sparkling by freeing it of clutter and by getting rid of anything that begins to rot, similarly we need to keep our mind free of repressed thoughts and feelings. Let it out as and when it comes and you’ll feel much lighter. Don’t carry a baggage all the time. Instead free yourself of it from time to time.

Relationships only grow stronger with your expressions. Don’t hesitate to be yourself. If you think in a particular way, let people know. If you feel in a particular way, that’s a part of who you are and not saying it doesn’t change that. Plus don’t you think your close ones deserve to know. If you think that not telling them about how you feel is going to help in any way, you are wrong. Give them a chance to understand you and then leave it up to them to accept it or reject it. They might not always accept what you say or the way you think but they still need to know.

So go ahead clear your baggage. Live each day in a way that you never have to look back and regret doing something or for that matter not doing something. Go tell your loved one’s how much they mean to you. Let them know they are important and appreciated. They might know it already but still saying it doesn’t hurt.

Remember, expressions can only make relationships and not break what’s not already broken.

 

Spread your wings and fly..

I am probably not qualified to write on this topic but what’s still making me write this is just the fact that over a period of time I have come across people who have kids (probably in the age group of 5-10 yrs) and are constantly worrying about how to be there to protect their kids from the world outside. What I see is that they try to be there, ‘for and with’ their kids as much as they can, keeping an eye on them throughout. Where the former (being ‘there’ for their kids) is a healthy thing the latter just makes them paranoid and over protective.

 

Where it’s necessary for parents to know what’s going on in their kids’ lives, most of the time, it’s equally important to do it the right way. Tagging along with them everywhere and every time is neither going to be possible nor the best thing to do. That ways, you might be satisfied that you are watching over your kids all the time and you might be convinced that your kids will never slip away but in time your kids might learn how to keep you at bay coz, take it from me, as they grow up, and graduate from school to college there are going to be hundreds of things that you will not know about them and hundreds that they will not tell you.

 

If you really want to be there for your kids, want them to turn to you before they turn to anyone else for help and guidance, there’s a lot that you will have to do. As they grow up, they will feel the need to have more of friendly advice than parental guidance. Even if that means resolving a fight with their boyfriend in standard 8! Yes, all that will happen, they will make mistakes, fall, stumble, get hurt, have boyfriends and girlfriends, talk about sex and a lot of other stuff that you would want to keep them away from. There’s just one way to do it. Be their friend. Give them a sense of comfort that they would share with a friend. Don’t judge them. Don’t pose restrictions coz then they might do exactly that, what you don’t want them to do. Be the first one to tell them about period, sexuality and loads of other things that you might be uncomfortable discussing with them but are essential. Most parents will keep waiting for the ‘right time’ and the ‘right age’ to talk to their kids about it but what they don’t realize is that their kids don’t think like that. If you don’t give them the information, they will get it from somewhere else and chances are that they will get half information which will only give rise to curiosity. You are the best person who could tell them why they should or should not do something. If you think 16 or 18 is the right age to educate your kids about it, you might not realize that they probably knew about it at 10 or 12.

 

Another thing, you might think you are being a wonderful parent by being there with your child all the time but what you might not realize that you might just be making your kid dependant on you. One day or another they will have to step out of their comfort zones for a course or a job, what will they do then? They will have to move out, sit for entrances, appear for interviews, face office or home politics, manage relationships, protect themselves, face the world and not let people walk over them. Ask yourself this question. Does the way, you are bringing up your kids, give them the courage and the confidence to face the world? Are you bringing up your kids to become increasingly dependant on you or are you helping them become strong individuals?

 

Yes, everybody makes mistakes, be there to warn them, to reason with them but let them learn, let them make their own mistakes (unless these are mistakes that will not leave scars on their lives), let them be free to make their own choices, let them chose what they want to believe and what they don’t want to believe. Everyday give them the strength and the confidence to go fight what ever comes their way and let them know that you are always there. Encourage them to come to you with problems but expect them to do it only if you think, they can expect you to understand. You will never be able to stop people from being unfair, unjust and mean to your kids, all that you can do is to make your kids strong enough to be able to handle such people and face unfavorable situations and circumstances.

 

Don’t judge them, there are enough people to do that already. Understand them. They might not be good at studies but that doesn’t make them worthless. Let them explore what they want to do and what they yearn to become. A good or bad score card in school is not the final score card, life has a completely different game plan and a very challenging set of rules. A lot of students with high scores end up as failures in life. So don’t jump to conclusions very soon. If they are not good at one thing they might be brilliant at something else.

 

In the end, yes, they’ll always be your kids but at one point of time you’ll just have to let them go. Don’t burden them with your expectations, let them chose their own path. And know, that at some time or the other you need to stop expecting them to be your kids first and then themselves. Don’t hold them back, let them spread their wings and fly..

 

Number Game: The Math of Life

 

 

For the last few days I have been wondering about this number game that’s played every time in India before a wedding. Horoscope matching, janam patri as we call it here in India. It’s a math test where the date of birth, time and place of birth of the boy and girl is matched to check their score on various parameters to ascertain if it’s a match worth considering or not. 

I wonder what one should do if one doesn’t have an impressive total? Are you supposed to give up a relationship just based on the fact that your score card isn’t convincing enough? Would you give up everything you had and disregard everything you got based on a ‘low’ score?  

If you are an Indian you will most certainly go through this process if you haven’t already. If things go well, you probably wouldn’t question the rules of the game, but if it doesn’t wouldn’t you want to question the whole thing?

 Think about it. How many marriages have failed even after having followed the tradition of horoscope matching and how many have worked even though their ‘horoscopes’ didn’t match.

 Does a good score ensure that you will not face problems in your life after marriage? That you will have a partner who doesn’t lie to you? Who doesn’t cheat on you? Does it ensure that your partner will understand you and stand by you through thick and thin?

 And if it doesn’t then does it make sense to give up a relationship where you have answers to all those questions but it’s just the math that doesn’t seem to work out? Would you just accept the low scores and resign to your fate or take charge and make things work? After all, it’s about a future that we haven’t seen. If our predictions would have been so accurate wouldn’t we have always known which path to choose? Wouldn’t we have always known when and how we would get all that we long for? Would we have ever made mistakes? It’s all about believing. Either you have faith in yourself and your relationship and the belief that you can make things work or you have faith in your score card, its all about faith and all about choices when both seem to go in different directions..

 

 

 

 

Go ahead.. Misunderstand me!

How some people are always sitting on the fence, trying to decide what is right for them and what is not. How they are so often looking for answers outside themselves, not knowing which way to go, trying to figure out what’s best for them. How, they, make a mess of their lives when they either listen, only to their heart or just do things recklessly without giving themselves a chance to ‘feel’ any thing.

I, on the other hand, often know what I want or don’t want to do. I am glad that most of the times, I don’t even have to think, its just me, myself, probably what’s called the ‘inner self’, guides me, gives me the answers even before I can pose the question.

I am connected with my self, everything inside me knows what to do and when. My mind, heart and soul work in perfect co-ordination. There is no conflict between my mind and my heart. Each makes itself heard and knows when to back off and let the other take control. I am guided by my senses and my conscience, which makes decision making so simple that I don’t even have to think. All I have to do is let my senses and my conscience take over and wait for their verdict.  

This seems like the perfect way to live, to think and to decide, but more often than not, I have no logical answer to offer to people. I feel in a particular way but I have no way to explain to people, how I feel and why and as a result I am often misunderstood as being irrational and not open to suggestions. It doesn’t matter, as long as my heart and soul are in perfect unison and my conscience clear.

Wouldn’t it be better if you give me suggestions when I ask for them, give me advice when I need it and show me the way if I am lost, not when ‘you think’ I am lost! You may think that I don’t know what I am doing but what you may never know is that there’s not a single thing I would do without having a reason.

 

For people who know me and are close to me I would want them to know:

I am complete and I am my happiness. What you think and who you are doesn’t complete me, but it makes my life more beautiful.

I might ignore what you think would hurt me and might get hurt by things you ignore..

You have a special place in my life and you are irreplaceable..

Expressions are what bring us closer, so please express your self, tell me how you feel. I might know how you feel but I would still love to hear it from you.. good or bad I need to hear it.

And in the end, I would like to be there for you the way you’ve been there for me..

 

For people who ‘think’ they know me:

You might not know ‘who I am’ and I might never explain it to you

I will never do/not do anything just because you think I should do it/not do it.

If you want to give me suggestions, I am listening, but don’t expect me to listen AND act on them! Consider yourself to be in the former category if you’ve already learned that! : P

I am open to ideas, suggestions, advice or what ever but don’t try to force me to do anything

I would never do anything to prove anything to any body; I don’t have to prove myself to anybody!

You might not have faith in me but that doesn’t affect my faith in myself

I don’t think the way people usually do, I think different and you might never understand, that’s probably why I don’t discuss things with you

I will never explain myself to you, so go ahead, if you want to misunderstand me

I might do things that you will never understand, but I still would have my reasons to do it

If you really want to know my reasons, it’s you who needs to have an open mind!

The term ‘society’ does not exist in my dictionary so don’t even try to convince me by using that word!

The only things that work with me are logic and reasoning, if you have neither, discussion closed.

The sole aim of writing this post was to warn you (think they ‘know’ me category) before you get yourself into trouble and to honor, acknowledge and salute the patience, tolerance and understanding of all those who are in the ‘know me and I care for’ category who have willingly or unwillingly learnt by experience (good or bad) the terms and conditions and for having the courage to still put up with me.

A standing ovation to all those people who have given me their valuable suggestions knowing that more often that not, they’ll not be taken, to those who have tried to do me good by giving me the ‘society’ threats, knowing that their arguments will be dismissed, to those who have so wanted me to do something but didn’t force me, coz they knew they just couldn’t and to those who did stuff only to make me happy coz they knew my obsession with certain things.

Thanks, life gets a lot easier with friends like you! J

 

Final Goodbye

The moon is out and the stars are shining  

But why does it seem that my fate is resigning,

I look up, at the starry sky

But something inside me wants to cry

 

I hold back my tears,

Try to fight my fears

Hope that it’ll be all right,

I just need to get through the night

 

The morning, I hope, will bring sunshine,

Wash away the tears and it’ll all be fine

I hope my hopes are not belied,                              

Of my love, I am not deprived

 

The breeze slightly brushed my hair,

And lightly whispered in my ears

‘Its time to wipe away all your tears

The night is gone and the sunshine near’

 

I lie awake and wait for the dawn

To be with you, my heart yearns

I hope the morning did not lie

I hope this was not our final goodbye

 

The Sun is Shining on You

How many times have you stopped for a minute and thanked God for what you have? How many times have you looked back and thanked Him for the choices he made for you, which, back then didn’t seem so right but eventually you got more than you asked for? How many times have you thanked Him without giving him a fresh wish list?

Stop, take a minute, look around and see what you have. For once, don’t look at the people who are better off than you, instead, look at the people who aren’t as lucky as you

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It happens so often, when we are out with our friends, a call from our parents, asking us where we are and when we’ll be back, irritates us, we complain about the food our mom has made, we complain about our relationships, crib for things we don’t have but just hold on for a minute. Shouldn’t we feel blessed instead? Coz some people don’t have a family waiting for them at home, they go back to empty houses, some people don’t have anybody who would be anxious for them, worried about them and would be waiting for them to get home. Some people don’t have enough food to eat or probably don’t have their mom’s taking care of their ever need. How many times have you thanked your mother for always being there for you? For always taking care of you and for always putting you first?

We are just so ready with the ‘why me?’ type questions when we lose something or somebody but ask yourself, how many times have you posed this question if you survived a storm, survived an accident, recovered from an almost fatal disease or got something nice you hadn’t even wished for? Why don’t we say ‘Oh God! Why me!?’ at that time?

 

Have you ever looked out of the window and said ‘what a bright sunny day!’ and thanked God for letting you see such a beautiful day? Imagine, deaf would be glad to even hear the honking of the cars in a traffic jam! Have you ever really listened to the sound of the rain drops falling, the waterfall and the birds singing and felt lucky that you can hear all of that.

 

Well I have, and its living with this awareness and realization that makes me feel blessed. Every now and then I thank him for giving me the life that I have, for giving me a wonderful family and for making me what I am today. Every time I go to any place of worship all I ask for is his blessing and the courage to fight whatever comes my way. I don’t ask for a life sans problems, instead I ask for strength to be able to stand tall and face it. If my relationship is in a crisis, I ask for guidance, and don’t beg to make things right, coz I trust him. I trust him and the decisions he makes for me. Even if that means separating from the one I had the most wonderful relationship with, the guy, I think is perfect for me, I wouldn’t complain, instead I’ll cherish the time I had with him, maybe I got more than my share. I’ll still be thankful for at least having known somebody so perfect, for at least knowing what it means to be so sure about somebody, coz I know that doesn’t happen to people very often. I’ll always be sad that we parted but I’ll always be thankful for what I once had.

 

I can be patient, to see what he has in store for me and I don’t judge him and jump to any conclusions. I let him guide me and take decisions for me where I don’t have any control.

 

Look at life from my point of view and you’ll see. Life is beautiful! It’s just the way you see it. Whether you choose to take everything you have for granted and keep asking for more or believe in the philosophy that we came with nothing and consider everything you have as a gift. Its all about making choices. Go ahead! Make yours!